It's all coming back to me now

i felt miserable back now... i don't know what to do. i miss him...a lot.
thinking of him make me tired and disappointed.
he did coming back last 2 weeks, i lied,told him i already had bf instead i don't have 1.
he said he will wait and don't want me left my new bf for him. but he wish i could give him a chance and asked me to let him be the last choice in my life, i thought he's changing but as what i thinking he's not. he go back to his gf and the reason he so stressful and the girl pop up from earth presenting while he devastated in life. which no work,no place to live and no one to love. so he asked the girl to have another chance which he not really sure how far they can go. so am i the 1 that have to wait right now!!
i just want him show more effort to win me back.
i met him tonight, then i confess what i really wanted. yes no one could replace him. he said never reject him,he the 1 who want me back. he should show how much he wanted me back,to love me more,to appreciates me and prove to me how much he love me. and middle of confessional the girl called. it's time to fetch her.
then he said we'll discuss this matter later. shut.. i wouldn't have talk with him anymore. what was he's thinking,want to be a friend with me,to chill and chat. heartless.. i guess i need to learn to hate him now and forever. Ya Allah please forgive me to hate him. this the only way to get rid him off.
i really wanted him to get off from my life. why You always makes him come back. he's juggling my life, my love, my emotion. i hate love. i hate to love guys. this feeling is sucks, they all sucks...

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SROTTT SROTTT

this week been attack by sore throat,flu and sequence with asthma..
waaaaa...
i hate being sick.
felt weak, exhausted and very very sick.

and my ex suddenly pop up from outer space.
creating a new prob again.
shut... this is most virus that i can rid off.

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Weekend X.T.V.T

last weekend life start begin at 7pm...
hahaha as usually becoz over the weekend ade opportunities nak bangun lambat.
k fine.
after teringin nak makan khailan ikan masin, so we decide to shop at Tesco.
beli a few things then eiyla & lea called.
karaoke time...
so after masak n makan me, jane and idie pon shoot of kat karaoke.
sampai lagi 10min left...so me n jane tambah lagi sejam...

lets karaoke sampai ilang suara...



oo last skali afis-idie's fren sampai...
erm hensem... tp sorry picture xde..



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2011

alhamdulillallah... ape yg aku wish last year dapat dah...

My HP G42 lappy

my Blackberry Curve 8250

syukur sume dont cost so much.

insyallah kalau ade rezeki aku nak bli camera palk... the thing yang aku wish sangat.

tapi tengah pikir should i buy Digicam or DSLR cam.

not sure yet because i need to buy DSLR so that my adik boleh pakai. Sebab she taking photograpy club kat sekolah die. so tak la useless sgt,atleast ade photograper kat umh kami... hehehe and model nye aku la sape lagi.

wakakakakaka....

ye la sape lagi nak jadi bahan experiment kan...

tapi high cost.... no its ok. aku kene support adik.

sape lagi kalau takk her onw blood sucker... haha even suck but still in a phat family..

insyallah la,tapi taktau bile...

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SNEAK PEEK

Sorry my dear blog, lame tak update. I’ve been busy this a few months.
Lagi pon hehehe laptop jahanam. The only way to update is through cc.x bape nak rajin g.
Alamak u know la whats the feel to go to cc when we already comfort online at home.

Seriously I felt like an idiot. Time study dlu, cc la tempat pujaan atiku…
What ever like to update, even bende ni akan buat sume org marah. Tapi I’ve realize my happiness is with him. Although he wif somebody else rite now.

Mmg la sedih,tapi this is I wanted to. So kene la redha.
Rite now, baru baik but not back together. Actually I don’t what does he felt towards me.
And I don’t even ask. In fact, I’m scared the word might hurt me. So it is better to flow slowly, softly like this.

What is good is his son still sayang wif me… hehehehe
Even his families still have a good expression to me. Last a few days I went out for dinner wif Anda while watched bola AFF Mal vs Ind at Mc Donald.
Of course he was there also.
It is a good starter for me to get back wif him.
And actually I really missed Anda. I take care of him since he was 2 till I brake off last year. Now he’s already 6.

So this year I wish my life will be happier then before. I hope Anda akan sayang kat aku. Between he n I just let Allah decide what the best for us.

This Saturday I’m planning to go to Times Square theme park having fun together wif Anda. Hopefully everything will be ok.

This is Anda before off to kindergarten.

Amin
Will update the activities later…

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What goes around comes around

Gile talak...the best word.
Entah la aku pon xtau nak cakap ape..
Time aku tengah sayang die, die push me away.
Bile aku merayu for come back die cemuh aku.
Bile ati aku dah terluka teruk die buat tak endah.
Bile aku dh mula healing, out of blue moon die muncul.

Cerite pasal hal sedih die kat aku.
Being mistreated with his GF which he compare ngan aku...
Oh am i still exist?
At the moment total all of my frenz will say NO to him.
No way for to come back to him.

Aku buntu gak.
Sebab die mcm chasing me everyday...
Aku bukan aku yg dulu...
even aku xde bf, but it doesn't mean aku kne terime die semula.
Juz aku x ready for funky relationship.
Aku go for serious which i think im not ready yet to accept anybody that i can trust.

Taste aku totally change.
Yang penting terlalu banyak bende kat die yang aku xleh accept.
1st- his mother and his family.
2nd- his son and his ex wife.

About him, i just pray that he will change.
Now im praying,hope he and his girl will OK.
Because his gf still asking for another chance. and i know he still love his gf.
Ya Allah, i hope they will be ok. so that he can stop from chasing me.
Amin

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Mini make over

Today got nothing much done.. yelah tengah bulan kan...paham² jela :-)
Bese la gaji twice a month, so not so surprise la kalau gaji dah abes time gini.
Owh... last nite keluar ngan Atie, happy for her because she alreaday made up her mind to accept this 1 guy as his bf.
Atie actually i just knew her,by my fren Harun. Tapi kepale die best sebab gile business, and she's independent.OK back to my story.... ingat planning nak jog this early morning since tak panas kan... tapi hampeh kerana aku woke up at 11am...best betol... pastu baru teringat ade appointment ngan harun...
need to help him to complete his task before go for training and exam- basic make up... some sort like that..
So aku m' volunteer kan diri utk di touch up aka mini make over.
Tapi best sebagai melayu, aku lambat a few minute. suppose janji at 5 tapi sampai 5.17.. even 17minute late but still... so proceed la... x request ape2 pon sbb i trust him. so far i dont have any skin problem but biggest challenge for him is to cover my eye with dark circle and wrinkle...
take some times sebab he's just a beginner. di bantu oleh Lisa utk touch up skit2...
so result... aku puas ati...FAB for me... sebab susah nak touch up eye back aku...

here the result

Tapi balik dengan rase hampa kerana dah cantik²
Xpela...nanti sokluse nak jalan² suh la harun touch up lagi...so till then

The End

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